teach me to how to know what i like

It was tough to live under people's expectations. Today, it remind the pain which i forget it long time ago. I thought I have let it go and accept the result which have been arranged. But, I'm wrong and it is not until someone remind me it agian and again. Well, i know actually i just buried it in my heart.

I always feel im too naive like a kid. I should be more realistic or selfish like other who perform in the real life. Sorry to use "selfish" for the description if i hurt u because of this. I'm apologize here. It is not selfish, it is ur effort to achieve what target u want. Am i right? Yes, I am.

Someone told me, criticism is not only a bad things, it can be a good things as well. This is because it is good improve ourselves and we know which is our weakness in some circumstances. They tend to emphasize more on the outcomes at the end of the story, then they are overlooking the process, especially on how hard the person have tried in front of the story.

Same go to the expectation. People always expect something from someone, it is normal case and it happen in all the time. It is very ironic. U may feel hurt for those who hear about it. But, it ask to me to turn my mind, what people are expecting on u, do it mean they are envy on what u have and what u can do on it? That is why, expectation come to us.
With my effort, I know I not achieve everything, but i know i achieved something. And, the "something" may be is what other looking for. People may envy or jealous on u non matter how best u try to perform and make everyone happy.

Well, sometime, i really hope to say, i need a heart talk. I need someone to show me where i should go and what decision i should make. I hope to walk out from a person sees me as so one dimensional. Do i seeking for recognition? Well, i think i am seeking for trust and courage on myself.

i hope to believe and make sure i can achieve something, but it not come with a mind to ask how hard it is to be achieved before i try it. When u believe on something, i believe it can be happened. Well, i think it is the time for me to be brave and decide where i want walk to.

But, honestly, i have no idea where i want to go and what i like on it. How to decide the direction or make any decision? THAT'S IS THE MAIN PROBLEM.

I need a kind mentor to guide me and provide me some training, especially on testing myself about what i like or what i want, and also how to make a decision.

Someone told me, and i ask myself to please remember :
U can't satisfy everyone. But trust urself. U need to first try do something that u never done before. The world is weird. Once u get into comfort zone, u will be very hard to get out from it. Many kind of ppl out there, sometimes its not u must make everyone happy