Life is full of choices. Depend on how u going to choose and be a ur decison maker. By the way, this come a question in the mind, try to think it now, who will always stand on ur shoes and support ur decision before u request the understanding from them?
Well, for my view, it is a good question!
People who know me, they know I'm hard to make decision even my leader highlight "make decision is a challenge for a leader which he/she needs to do it so". Throwback all the times that i have been went through, I'm always be good and listen the heart from others, then try to achieve it, not for others but also for myself.
There is a promise which i almost forget about it. Now, it is what we work hard on it to make it come true. Life is a no end cycle, it keep on repeat, but different and special for everyday, such as the obstacle that we meet in life. The more the difficult it is, the high the value it is, it mean the more the feeling and experience we gain at the end. So, think positive and find out the plus point on every incident. Life is about to create miracle.
I'm going a big program before I graduate and end my university life. Honestly, I do not know why I insist on it non matter what ad-hoc problem keep on happen to block the way. The date of the program keep on changing from september to actober, october to november... End up, we have no choice and move it to november and the date is exactly crash on the trip that i promise my friends for one year ago.
Actually, I'm sad on it. Not only because I break the promise and can't have a vacation with my friends although some of them can understand my situation, moreover I know I cant put away this program just because of the trip and friends. I not dare to tell my real feeling to anyone, but i told my mom about this before. She ask me think on which one is more important and I still can go travelling anytime as i want in life. Ya, she is right. I know which decision i should make. And, actually i know where i should go before i ask her. May be i just need a talk.
I'm sad because I break one of the promise for myself. How long i have looking for it? May be only I'm the one who know it. I like to run here and there to somewhere that i never step in before. To see something new, to try something new, to feel somethng new, to extend my mind and heart. After i graduated, do i have time to do that so?
Sure, i can. But, no, i not think so. Just ignore me, because emotion is disturbing my mind now.
Until now, the program is not fully well solved, but we still work very hard for it. I'm the first one who break the promise and can't go for the trip. It is followed by my friends. I'm not clear on their situation now, may be they have something to bother them as well, so they are forced to absent in the trip like me.
All expenses of the trip are still shared together for those who going or not going for the trip. I can understand the reason behide the story when i receive the message from my friends. Well, who understand what im thinking now? i smile on this when this question come to my mind.
Life is full of choices. Non matter what decision u have made, u need to carry the responsibility for it until the end. This is what i know.
For a person who can understand others well. To be or not to be? For u who is reading this article, which one u will choose? To be the one who understand others? Or u perfer not to be the one who understand others and u are requesting other to understand u?
Althought im hoping for something, may be just a talking moment or understanding, but im not going to request it. Take it easy. Life still on. Sure u gain something which is out of ur expectation on the way. Smile.
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