Learn to be decision maker

I am not a good decision make. Nobody is a leader when he/she was once. May be we need training to make ourselve better. Well, I always  feel im not brave enough to make any decision or take risk. But, life is full of challenge and u have to make decision or even take risk. And, i know it.

Sometime I feel I care too much and cause I'm too stress. I am busying on take care everything and everyone to achieve the satisfaction. End up, do i happy or enjoy on it? I always ask myself on that question when i am confusing on where should i stand in the situation.

My boss told me something before and it impress me. It is fresh in mind when I need to make decision. He said, "this is the challenge as a lead (decision maker). You have the full power in making decision. Don’t be afraid of making any of the decision.  The key value here is, you can’t make every single people satisfy and happy, so just try you best and you will be happy to see most of them happy."

When i review back now, there is another person told me "no need worry too much". But, i always worry too much and i admit it. The feeling of insecure control my mind. I worry about imprefection and i afraid of failure. Keep on throwback ur life, i will realise a lot of story in ur life. It can be a short story or a chapter to chapter story.

There is another person in my mind for this topic. He feel sorry to throw every decision to me. It was his mistake. He ask me to learn to make decisions  It will bring me very far. Actually, some of the things here, he do is to test my skills in decision. He told me, "when I said u can, meaning i will support u if u really cant." Remember, you live everyday to create miracle. When u're at a level of great flexibility and confidence, anything is achievable.

Well, I learnt a lot from him, I learnt a lot from them and I'm still learning. I think I have fail many of them. I disappointed them. Im sorry. I feel sad on myself.

I not sure what im following is in correct or incorrect direction. I know i still will follow it, my sixth sense guide me that. The person apologize to me because he put me in a hard situation. Yes, it is. But, i have the responsibility as well, i also feel sorry to him. I believe answer will come to me in the end of the story.

Somebody said i have learn a lot compare with other. Well, I'm not sure and I cant see it by myself. May be yes. May be no. I hope I'm. =)