If can't stop, then keep on run.

Hi, welcome back. I feel to say this to myself with a sweetly smile. Well, I just run away and get back to here now.

A girl told me, I looked so happy when she was with me. Yes, my mood is better compare to before. But, it doesn't mean I'm ok or happy. What i can say is, I feel better. My family did not knew what i run few hundreds kilometer to home even until now i have return to my campus.

Everyone thought the purpose I went home is to meet my friend who live in city. Nobody know I planed to home and the decision was made in 1 hour before the bus arrive to the bus stop. I still remember what my sister asked me. Why I get back to home in sudden without any early inform or plan? is it the ticket too cheap or I'm rich now?

Doesn't matter. It is not important for me. I start to feel explanation not mean anything if somebody really cant put herself/himself in to ur shoes. May be LOCO know why I want to home. The reason why i run away and home, I think I'm the only one who know the reason at all.

Yes, I went out for movie even I watched it before. And, I also did not finish my assignment during the period. By the way, I learnt something, which is how best it is if somebody accompany u to do something that u want to. The feel is damn good. Really. enjoy it~

The movie is so nice, I did not mind to watch it twice. The movie ask me TO BELIEVE and make thing happen. The movie ask me TO BRAVE and do not scare even nobody with u, just start the thing to show it to other. The movie ask me TO RUN and keep on run even get lost, which is the fact of life, -never stop. < the maze runner >

Now, I have two same ticket which is in different date, different time and different cinema.

The reason why I run away. Yes, I go and find my friend for a movie, may be it is one of the reason. Yes, I just to see my family one, who stand in front of me, face to face, by my eyes. Yes, I'm stress and I feel I can't breath anymore at here. Yes, I know I need a run for myself.

Stand in front of the number, 23, first time I feel I'm not allowed to breath in the earth, it is not a choice, is i cant make it, my body feel "blocked" for that. That's why i choose to run. I need to find something for myself to breath and keep myself alive.

I know how childish and weakness I'm. I'm sorry. Nobody know how it feel in my body. Well, is ok. I will get thorough it. Here, is the reason and explanation that i wrote here, not for other, but for myself.

If can't stop, then keep on run. =)