Friday, September 26, 2014
Learn to be decision maker
I am not a good decision make. Nobody is a leader when he/she was once. May be we need training to make ourselve better. Well, I always feel im not brave enough to make any decision or take risk. But, life is full of challenge and u have to make decision or even take risk. And, i know it.
Sometime I feel I care too much and cause I'm too stress. I am busying on take care everything and everyone to achieve the satisfaction. End up, do i happy or enjoy on it? I always ask myself on that question when i am confusing on where should i stand in the situation.
My boss told me something before and it impress me. It is fresh in mind when I need to make decision. He said, "this is the challenge as a lead (decision maker). You have the full power in making decision. Don’t be afraid of making any of the decision. The key value here is, you can’t make every single people satisfy and happy, so just try you best and you will be happy to see most of them happy."
When i review back now, there is another person told me "no need worry too much". But, i always worry too much and i admit it. The feeling of insecure control my mind. I worry about imprefection and i afraid of failure. Keep on throwback ur life, i will realise a lot of story in ur life. It can be a short story or a chapter to chapter story.
There is another person in my mind for this topic. He feel sorry to throw every decision to me. It was his mistake. He ask me to learn to make decisions It will bring me very far. Actually, some of the things here, he do is to test my skills in decision. He told me, "when I said u can, meaning i will support u if u really cant." Remember, you live everyday to create miracle. When u're at a level of great flexibility and confidence, anything is achievable.
Well, I learnt a lot from him, I learnt a lot from them and I'm still learning. I think I have fail many of them. I disappointed them. Im sorry. I feel sad on myself.
I not sure what im following is in correct or incorrect direction. I know i still will follow it, my sixth sense guide me that. The person apologize to me because he put me in a hard situation. Yes, it is. But, i have the responsibility as well, i also feel sorry to him. I believe answer will come to me in the end of the story.
Somebody said i have learn a lot compare with other. Well, I'm not sure and I cant see it by myself. May be yes. May be no. I hope I'm. =)
Sometime I feel I care too much and cause I'm too stress. I am busying on take care everything and everyone to achieve the satisfaction. End up, do i happy or enjoy on it? I always ask myself on that question when i am confusing on where should i stand in the situation.
My boss told me something before and it impress me. It is fresh in mind when I need to make decision. He said, "this is the challenge as a lead (decision maker). You have the full power in making decision. Don’t be afraid of making any of the decision. The key value here is, you can’t make every single people satisfy and happy, so just try you best and you will be happy to see most of them happy."
When i review back now, there is another person told me "no need worry too much". But, i always worry too much and i admit it. The feeling of insecure control my mind. I worry about imprefection and i afraid of failure. Keep on throwback ur life, i will realise a lot of story in ur life. It can be a short story or a chapter to chapter story.
There is another person in my mind for this topic. He feel sorry to throw every decision to me. It was his mistake. He ask me to learn to make decisions It will bring me very far. Actually, some of the things here, he do is to test my skills in decision. He told me, "when I said u can, meaning i will support u if u really cant." Remember, you live everyday to create miracle. When u're at a level of great flexibility and confidence, anything is achievable.
Well, I learnt a lot from him, I learnt a lot from them and I'm still learning. I think I have fail many of them. I disappointed them. Im sorry. I feel sad on myself.
I not sure what im following is in correct or incorrect direction. I know i still will follow it, my sixth sense guide me that. The person apologize to me because he put me in a hard situation. Yes, it is. But, i have the responsibility as well, i also feel sorry to him. I believe answer will come to me in the end of the story.
Somebody said i have learn a lot compare with other. Well, I'm not sure and I cant see it by myself. May be yes. May be no. I hope I'm. =)
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
reality and life
People are angry on u when u are angry on them. It may happen together at the same time. Remember, not only u have the right to angry on other.
Ya. When i complain on other, may be he/she also not satisfy on my attitude. Don't complain on other and make sure u also has to do ur best in the part.
Tell people WHY they need to do so. Everything happen with a reason and related to self-benefit before he/she take the action. This is all about reality and life.
Someone show me WHY. I learn how to handle staff in mature way. There is a DONT and DO believe.
Ya. When i complain on other, may be he/she also not satisfy on my attitude. Don't complain on other and make sure u also has to do ur best in the part.
Tell people WHY they need to do so. Everything happen with a reason and related to self-benefit before he/she take the action. This is all about reality and life.
Someone show me WHY. I learn how to handle staff in mature way. There is a DONT and DO believe.
God won't give you challenge or let you give you obstacles that you can't solve
quantity or quality? Which one should come first?
I feel confuse when i stand on the position of decision maker. A list with name will come to my mind at this moment, i think of my friend and my boss. I start to suspend myself in term of capability and i lose my mind in how to believe on others.
We have a decision inside our deep heart. We just hope for support from other to decide it. It is all about confidence. Confidence build a person to lead her/his life, it can be generated by herself/himself or others. In another word, it is a support to believe that we can make something happen.
By the way, i have a feel. I able to achieve and make it happen. I not sure where is the strong feeling come from. But, i know it will happen. I can make it happen and show to the world. Everything happen with a reason. All the obstacle i meet is to train myself to be better. It is a lovely gift from God. God won't give you challenge or let you give you obstacles that you can't solve.
Yes. Accept it. I am ready non matter how hard it is. Now, time to make it happen, not for u to sit and complain here. =)
I feel confuse when i stand on the position of decision maker. A list with name will come to my mind at this moment, i think of my friend and my boss. I start to suspend myself in term of capability and i lose my mind in how to believe on others.
We have a decision inside our deep heart. We just hope for support from other to decide it. It is all about confidence. Confidence build a person to lead her/his life, it can be generated by herself/himself or others. In another word, it is a support to believe that we can make something happen.
By the way, i have a feel. I able to achieve and make it happen. I not sure where is the strong feeling come from. But, i know it will happen. I can make it happen and show to the world. Everything happen with a reason. All the obstacle i meet is to train myself to be better. It is a lovely gift from God. God won't give you challenge or let you give you obstacles that you can't solve.
Yes. Accept it. I am ready non matter how hard it is. Now, time to make it happen, not for u to sit and complain here. =)
i hate the feeling of wait
I hate to wait and the feeling of wait.
I dont mind to wait those who are late, but not always and over late for few hours without inform. For my boy, please dont let me wait u without any reason. i can wait for u and i dont mind. but, no excuse.
Honestly, i really hate the feeling of wait. The feeling can be concluded as "waiting is killing". U not able to count how many cells in ur bodys have been killing while u waiting for something or someone. Somemore, it wastes time. I sure i always will fight with my boy if he late. I hate to wait.
Hey, at least inform others on why u late.
我真的感觉自己委屈生气了
从那天我告诉自己“不可以再气头上做决定”起，我就知道凡事不在中立和理智的情况下，我都把自己当下的方法当作疯子，不可以拿做认真。
我知道现在我是在情绪上，我知道我是在意气用事，我更是处在起头上。但是，我真的真的受够了，我受很多了……我也不要，我什么都不要……我真的很累很累……很委屈，要低微自己去成全别人的高尚，甚至硬硬拿热脸去贴别人的冷屁股……重点是，我觉得我很委屈自己。
我答应过自己，就算再辛苦和在困难的环境里，凡事都不可以委屈自己。
为什么我要那么低
就说我小气好了……就说以为我大方不在意好了……说什么都可以。
我不是想象中那么坚强，有能力，有自信的人。我已经开始质疑我自己，为什么我要继续去相信？每一次的相信最后都没有实践。这让我真的开始失去相信的能力了……而且我非常讨厌这种感觉和这样的自己。
如果你真的忙……如果我真的没有那样的能力……如果我连累了你……如果和如果，拜托你另请高明吧…… 去找你疼惜和相信你的人和你继续朝向相信去实践。对不起。我比谁都更清楚我自己，我一旦下了决定，忆一切覆水难收。
我不是24小时守候和待命的。我也有自己的事情要处理。如果我奉陪你每一次的要求，谁会像我那么傻一样奉陪不拒绝我每一次的请求呢？
你有本事，就证明给我看我是错的，就说服我再次对你另眼相看……
或许，从头到尾，这机会，根本就不该是我的。如果这个机会是落在他人手里，或许现在他们拥有一群朋友一起在努力，而且一切顺利稳固多了。
对不起。我生气了。
对不起。我真的觉得委屈，没有人珍惜和分担。
我知道现在我是在情绪上，我知道我是在意气用事，我更是处在起头上。但是，我真的真的受够了，我受很多了……我也不要，我什么都不要……我真的很累很累……很委屈，要低微自己去成全别人的高尚，甚至硬硬拿热脸去贴别人的冷屁股……重点是，我觉得我很委屈自己。
我答应过自己，就算再辛苦和在困难的环境里，凡事都不可以委屈自己。
为什么我要那么低
就说我小气好了……就说以为我大方不在意好了……说什么都可以。
我不是想象中那么坚强，有能力，有自信的人。我已经开始质疑我自己，为什么我要继续去相信？每一次的相信最后都没有实践。这让我真的开始失去相信的能力了……而且我非常讨厌这种感觉和这样的自己。
如果你真的忙……如果我真的没有那样的能力……如果我连累了你……如果和如果，拜托你另请高明吧…… 去找你疼惜和相信你的人和你继续朝向相信去实践。对不起。我比谁都更清楚我自己，我一旦下了决定，忆一切覆水难收。
我不是24小时守候和待命的。我也有自己的事情要处理。如果我奉陪你每一次的要求，谁会像我那么傻一样奉陪不拒绝我每一次的请求呢？
你有本事，就证明给我看我是错的，就说服我再次对你另眼相看……
或许，从头到尾，这机会，根本就不该是我的。如果这个机会是落在他人手里，或许现在他们拥有一群朋友一起在努力，而且一切顺利稳固多了。
对不起。我生气了。
对不起。我真的觉得委屈，没有人珍惜和分担。
Monday, September 22, 2014
Thanks the little girl
I like to write down my life. It likes a story which is interesting and fun. This is my first english article in here. I hope it wont be the last as well.
Someone suggest me to write my blog with English. It may improve my poor language. Yes, i agree on it. I feel happy to start this even i worry on my poor englisg skill. And, i think it is time to shorten my story here by highlighting the main point is enough. *hehe*
Once again, i can feel how luck i am to meet those friends who really do something for ur own good. Not everyone who around u always do that for u, but may be some of them. U may meet them in ur life. So, take good care for them and urself.
Actually, i try to get someone to correct my weakness along the way. But, it is fail. Moreover, I realise everyone are too busy on themselves and no time to care each other. Some of them may be not generous and kind as u think. It may be a excuse and may be not. Everyone have their personal mindset and it make us unique.
Stop to envy others, why not start to make it happen on urself? Well, i should say, stop to be afraid, prepare urself and achieve it. We may fail on it, but why we need to worry so much? We still who we are and ur friend still with u because they know u and love as who u are.
Thanks the little girl for her suggestion. By the way, i still curious on why she are so good to me. May be god ties us with fate. May be.
Someone suggest me to write my blog with English. It may improve my poor language. Yes, i agree on it. I feel happy to start this even i worry on my poor englisg skill. And, i think it is time to shorten my story here by highlighting the main point is enough. *hehe*
Once again, i can feel how luck i am to meet those friends who really do something for ur own good. Not everyone who around u always do that for u, but may be some of them. U may meet them in ur life. So, take good care for them and urself.
Actually, i try to get someone to correct my weakness along the way. But, it is fail. Moreover, I realise everyone are too busy on themselves and no time to care each other. Some of them may be not generous and kind as u think. It may be a excuse and may be not. Everyone have their personal mindset and it make us unique.
Stop to envy others, why not start to make it happen on urself? Well, i should say, stop to be afraid, prepare urself and achieve it. We may fail on it, but why we need to worry so much? We still who we are and ur friend still with u because they know u and love as who u are.
Thanks the little girl for her suggestion. By the way, i still curious on why she are so good to me. May be god ties us with fate. May be.
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